Prayer

I am sorry God but tonight I am not feeling very sure of myself. I know, how selfish of me after all You have shown me of who You are and who I am in Christ. I just did not expect to feel this way. Well, therein lies my problem. I can't put expectations on how I think people should be. There not perfect, even though they act like it in there own little way. My expectation should be in you and your word. I am not sure I can do what your calling me to do.
This is gonna be hard and...oh please help me through this. I desire to do your will more then anything. I wanna live for you. Not myself or man but you Lord is what I desire. Strengthen me and give me a spirit of wisdom and revelation during these next 3 weeks. I don't belong here Lord at least that's how I feel. And yet they treated your son like this too huh? I don't even want to be here but not my will may yours be done. Help me to see through the eye's of grace. Help me to do your will and not what everyone else thinks I should be doing with my life. Help me to keep being real. To be who you created me to be even when other's are still wearing masks...and humble me Lord to see myself as you see me, no better and no less.
In your name.