Getting Ready to Emerge

I think I am at some kinda stand still right now, a crossroads. I see what's behind, I see what's to come, I see what is now and I am not moving because of fear, lack of confidence and insecurities. These mindsets come from a lack of trust in God. They will prevent me from entering into the fullness of Christ, the promises He has for me, the abundant living.
I have been praying for God to show me the way and with that He is reminding me that "I am the way, the truth, and the life" I am gonna have to say goodbye to the old way of doing things. I have already started but I am not giving Him my all. I think the hardest part in all this is letting go of dead relationships and starting new ones.
I don't want to just be going through the motions anymore but I wanna truly and freely live the life that Christ died to give me. To take up my own cross and die to self. But not just to stay at the cross like so many of us are taught to do but to emerge by the power of the cross into a beautiful butterfly.