Fake Pearls

Today is kinda a sad day as God takes me past this pain that I carry. I read a verse in one of the books I am currently reading. Matthew 13:45-46~The kingdom of heaven is like a merchant looking for fine pearls. When he found one of great value, he went away and sold everything he had and bought it. The author goes on to talk about fake pearls. She says, "I must come to the point where I stop the payments on the fake pearls in my life and start making the payment on the real pearl".
This got me thinking. Wut are some fake pearls in my life? And the one that is strongest on my heart is my marriage.
My relationship with my husband is so fake. Nothing about it is real. I do see God moving in and beginning to break down those barriers between us though. I just never saw it like this before. My husband is of great worth. Our marriage relationship is of great worth because this is something Christ values. Up till now my focus has been to stay married but now I see that God is really wanting to make it into a love relationship. A real pearl...