Majesty

Majesty(Here I am)


Here I am humbled by your Majesty
Covered by your grace so free
Here I am, knowing I'm a sinful man
Covered by the blood of the Lamb

Now I've found the greatest love of all is mine
Since you laid down your life
The greatest sacrifice

Majesty, Majesty
Your grace has found me just as I am
Empty handed, but alive in your hands
Majesty, Majesty
Forever I am changed by your love
In the presence of your Majesty

Here I am humbled by the love that you give
Forgiven so that I can forgive
Here I stand, knowing that I am your desire
Sanctified by glory and fire...

Purification

So much is happening. I am consumed by His presence. I am in awe with His words to me and this, this feeling I almost can't contain it. It is the Holy Spirit that burns within me to the deepest parts of my soul. He is cleansing me, washing me and making me whole, making me holy.

Quote

"Outer power only comes from inner purity, and that inner purification (or santification) is a work of the Holy Spirit living within. He wants to fill you with Himself, to give you the power to live the abundant life that is available through believing in Jesus Christ."~Joyce Meyer

This I believe is what the Lord is doing with me.

The Cracks in my Heart

God keeps playing all the right songs today. One's like "I still believe" and "hold fast help is on the way".
I do believe but in the mean time it hurts. My heart is heavy in this present darkness. And as I write that He tells me that He is peircing it. Oh how I long to give you all of me sweet Jesus!
He wants more of my past. He is calling me gently telling me "now let me take this, it's going to be okay". There is more chains that need to be broken. Like one's with my husband.
When God told me that He was going to be purifying me I had no idea it was of things that I had buried deep, deep down inside. The cracks in my heart He wants to fill with His love. I had no idea they were even there.
I feel it...Come fill my heart Lord. Fill my heart....

Who Am I??

Well, earlier I was having a pity party. I am in no way where I should be with my identity in Christ and that's okay. But I have had a very difficult weekend trying to get over myself. I just don't understand this identity and humility thing. Where is the balance when it comes to people doing or saying things to me that are just wrong? If it's my pride that take's offense and it's humility that forgives then where does my identity come in?? How do I walk away in confident forgivness seeing myself(as well as them) as God see's us His people?These are the thoughts I was having this morning until I recieved some great advice. "My identity is my identity weather I know who I am or anyone else does." This tells me that it cannot be taken away from me no matter what other people think of me or how they treat me. I just need to keep learning and studying on who I am in Christ. Because the danger does not lie in wut people think of me. The danger lies in me not being certain of who I am in Christ. Because in the end how they treat me is based on wut they think of me, and more importantly wut they think of themselves. I just gota keep telling myself this.

Purify Me Lord

While doing day 3 in Beth Moore's study Believing God I read this verse. Psalm 51:7 Purify me from my sins, and I will be clean; wash me, and I will be whiter than snow. Oh yaaa... I thank God so much for bringing me to this verse. This is the verse He has been telling me ever since the tea cup. This is wut He keeps reminding me of as the days go by. Even today when I did day 5 in the study I was reminded with Rahab's story. And it goes on. Starting in verse 10 it says Create in me a clean heart, O God. Renew a right spirit within me. Do not banish me from your presence, and don't take your Holy Spirit from me. Restore unto me again the joy of your salvation, and make me willing to obey you. Then I will teach your ways to sinners, and they will return to you. This is wut I believe is happening to me now. I just love His word. It speaks life to my weary soul. Telling me I am what I am and I can do what I can do. He is all I need.

Saturate me in Your Presence

The last couple days have been icee. It even snowed a little bit here. As I looked out the window and watched the snow flakes fall gently to the ground the Lord reminded me of how much I am forgiven, And my past sins are as white as snow.
In the evening I caught a glimpes of the covered ground in the moonlight. The grass saturated in water from the rain and sleet that had been falling all day.
Just like the covered grass He is covering me...
His blood is covering me
His healing hands are covering me
His love is covering me
His presence is covering me.

Prayer~
I want to be saturated in You oh Lord. Saturate me in your love and in your healing waters. Pour out your spirit upon me and all that read this blog post. I love you!

I am His and He is mine

I have not taken the time to write about my encouter with God Tues. night. Part of me is still trying to process it all. I know that I need to journal about it tho cuz as I write the Lord will reveal even more to me.

On the evening of January 9,2007, I gave myself away to Christ. The Lord of my life and the lover of my soul. I can totally see how God had been preparing my heart for this night. It all started in Dec. with the white tea cup I recieved and then moved on from there. I now truly know that I know, I am the bride of Christ and I desire to walk in that identity. For it is my destiny as well as your's.
This all took place at a local church that I had never been to until that night. I had heard about this church thru a friend that recently started attending there. I listened to a couple messages online and thought "man,this church is right where I'm at" In that the things I heard these pastors preach was everything the Lord had been speaking to me. And so, at the begining of the year I saw on there website that the women's ministry was having a "spa night" and the theme was Esther. I did not know what to expect I only knew that I had this strong desire that I had to be there. And so I went because He called.

I watched intensly as first the womans leader spoke and then her husband. I was jumping up and down inside myself, yelling OMG. I couldn't believe what I was hearing. For it was everything the Lord had been speaking to me about being His princess, His bride. And I saw that these people, this ministry,was to be the insruments used by God to help bring it to fruitation in my life.
I was to be annointed in Myrrh just as Esther soaked in Myrrh to prepare for her reign. As I meditated on the Holy Spirits words and watched as one at a time the women were being annointed in Myrrh, all I could say to Him was "I can't believe You want me,me, You want me..."
Finally it was my turn. The leader annoited my forhead and spoke revelation over me. "Holy Spirit come beautify my sister..." After, another lady lead me to the alter,where she prayed for the Lord to show me how beautiful I am to Him and left me to soak in the presence of the Holy Spirit. I thanked Him for who He was and this ministry that He led me to. For loving me and seeing me as His bride. Before I went back to my seat I said "okay Lord, even though I can not understand all that your doing in my life I give myself over to you. Take it, I am your's".

That was the night I gave myself away. Not just to anyone but to a King. A King that see's me as His princess. A King that is coming back for His beloved bride. Yes, this is my destiny. To talk like I am His, to walk like I am His, to think like I am His is to know I am His forever more.

I am good enough for the King

I am excited to see God's hand upon my life and to watch His will unfold...My Destiny. He is doing so much inside me today that it's crazy to even think about. But, today I am basking in His loving arms, holding me saying "You are good enough,you are good enough".

I Stand in awe of You

So much is happening lately that I am having trouble prossesing it all...
I am just in awe of God and His greatness, His holiness, His awesomness... I don't even know where to begin...
I sit on my bed just overwhelmed by His presence while He is holding me and drawing me near. As His hand caresses my heart taking away all my fears and insecurities I stand in awe of Him.

Revelation:A few days ago the Lord gave me a picture of myself as the prodical. I saw Jesus in the distance with His arms open wide waiting for me to run to Him. It was a picture of me leaving my past behind.
This morning, I listend to David Crowder Band. I started crying to the song Deliver me. Last night I was annointed twice and prayed over. This morning I knew the Lord was not finished with me yet. And for the first time in my life, I ran to Him. "He took me in His arms, held my head to His chest and said my daughter has come home again."(that's a song)
Why home again? Because I have always belonged to the Lord. I was dedicated when I was a baby. And I did not know that until today. I stand in awe of Him...

Dancing Alone

I dance alone.
With all that is going on in my life and with all that God is doing in me to better myself and family.
I dance alone.
While crying and laughing, rejoicing, and praising Him.
I dance alone.
When I need to push and pull. And push and pull some more.
I dance alone.
I wait and I wait...And wait some more,
Until one day your dancing with me.
But until that day comes,
I dance alone.

(Hey, at least I'm dancing!)

I Like's

Heyeee, I really like this blog and the way everything looks. I think I will keep going on wit it. My other blog will be dedicated to homeschooling and raising my kids.

Struggling to get thru the Day

Well, I have been debating on wether or not I should even keep this blog going. So many changes are taking place in my life right now that I am starting to feel a little overwhelmed. I know that God is not gonna give me anything that I can't handle but up till now I really haven't been able to handle anything(humanly speaking). Yes, the Lord is my strength and all that but I haven't even trusted Him enough with my whole entire life. If I haven't even trusted Him with my own self then how in the world did I ever think I was trusting Him with my kids or my husband. Okay, so I know that it's "One Day at a Time" But, remind me wut day it is again???