Go and Sin no More

My pastors message yesterday was crazy awesome! God is using it as part of my healing process in my sexual brokenness. We read John 8:1-11 where Jesus tells the adulterous woman in verse 11 to go and sin no more. These words Go and sin no more carry a special meaning in my life.
When I was about twenty years old I moved in with my boyfriend whom I barley knew. He was an unbeliever. Having grown up in church I knew living with this man was not right. But I didn't care. The abuse started right away. I became pregnant and lost the baby around 3 months. A few months later I got pregnant again.
During my pregnancy I set out to read the bible all the way through. When I came to the story of Moses and Egypt the Lord pressed on my heart that I was living in an Egypt and He wanted to take me out of the land, I did not belong there. He even sent me an Aaron so to speak. My sister came and stayed with me while I had the baby.
The time came for my sister to leave. I couldn't stand the fact that I wasn't going with her like I knew I should. She left with promises from me that I would follow in 2 weeks. Those last 2 weeks were some of the hardest of my life as I prepared and planned my escape, wished and cried it all away.
It was around this time that I heard Rebecca St. James song, Go and Sin no more on the local christian radio. God was talking to me. "Go(get out of this place) And sin no more"
Fast forward to now, 12 years later and I'm sitting in church as a sexually broken woman listening to a message titled God & Sex - John 8:1-11. I just wanted to break down and cry tears of pain, tears of shame. Driving home Father reminded me of Go and sin no more. He said, I have already forgiven you daughter, now believe it! Let this be an end to a new beginning to sexual wholeness.

"He said to her, Woman, Where are your accusers? Has no man condemned you?
She answered, No one, Lord! And Jesus said, I do not condemn you either. Go on your way and from now on sin no more." ~ John 8:10-11