Lonely Girl

Hey there lonely Girl, lonely girl
Let me make your broken heart like new...



Everything came to a head last night. It's that whole teapot thing. When the anger starts to boil and then you blow and let outa whole lotta steam. Except, it's not anger that has come to the surface but pain. This pain goes deep. It's an emptiness and heaviness at the same time...The pain is loneliness. It's a different kinda loneliness I never felt before though. It's more then being home alone for the holidays. It's a loneliness that says, no one wants you. No one cares. No one even notices your there. It's feelings of abandonment,helplessness and wandering. I have carried this loneliness with me since I was a little girl. Always being left alone to find my way through life. So much stuff that has left me feeling abandoned and alone. So much stuff that still leaves me feeling left all alone.
As painful as it may be this is all part of my growing up. To see myself as He sees me. To know in my heart and not just my head that He calls me His own. To know I am His daughter and to know how very much He loves me.