Guest Blogger: Angelina

Lately I have been struggling with the fact that God is not human. Like when we walk with God and often we can hear Him calling us closer to Himself. And instead of walking nearer to Him we demand that He come closer to us. It’s true that Jesus always meets us where we are, but where we get caught in that fact is when we try to stay there. And once Jesus meets us there, He never intends to keep us there. So what does that struggle look like on a personal level? This is mine:

I ask God to meet me and then when He draws so near I have the most difficult time allowing His unfailing love to embrace the ugliness of my flaws and the desperateness of my sin. At times I think I’ve gone too far, stayed away too long or fell too many times to have Him love me just the way He did when I thought I was beautiful and His love was okay. Sometimes the world whispers, “Don’t believe that kind of unconditional love”, and I listen. I struggle with the fact that God is not human because I try so hard to humanize Him. I resolve that God must think and process the same way I do because I become discouraged and then decide that God is not able. It’s when He reminds me that I am the one who is not able and I am the one who has carried a disbelief that He has never meant for me to carry that I step back from my world. I take in a deep breathe of God’s love and open my eyes to who He really is again. I have a habit of trying to bring Him down to my level. Old habits die hard and He wants to kill this one for sure. I am sharing this because I don’t think that I am the only human who does this. And if I’m not I wanted you to remember, just like I need to, that our Daddy loves us at all times, and He loves us too much to keep us where we are and there is not one time over another where we are more or less beautiful. We are beautiful always.

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