It was this day back on June 28, 1996 that my lil'Angel came into the world. Fashioned and formed from the Father's hands God gave me a gift to unwrap as time goes on. Messenger of new beginnings is his God given name aka Angel Noel.
Recently, I had a vision of Angel standing on a straight dirt path. With trees on the sides this path went on and on and at the end was God. He was caring a sword.
A picture of a mighty warrior walking the narrow road that leads to life.
A couple days later God gave me the same picture but this time I saw Christ holding Angel's right hand and walking him along the road that leads to life.
This morning He gave me this verse for my son.
"Yet I still belong to you; you are holding my right hand. You will keep on guiding me with your counsel, leading me to a glorious destiny." ~ Psalm 73:23-24,NLT
Prince of new beginnings is the word that was spoken over him when he was a baby. Little did I know then that this little child would be leading us to lots of new beginnings.
Lead on lil' soldier, lead on...
Jun 28, 2007
Redeeming Love
This book is really stirring up some feelings in me. Feelings that I wasn't exactly aware of until reading this story. It's like I am reading my own self. All though I was never a prostitute I can so relate to the character's feelings. Feelings of not being able to receive love. Putting up walls of protection that seem to be so tight ain't nothing gonna get through. Walking through life in a trans like state. A numbness that enables you not to feel a thing and yet it hurts so bad that you just want to end it all.
I am starting to see this now as it really is. A lie of the enemy that comes straight from the pit of hell itself.
I don't usually read fiction but this one is well worth the read with God's love~n~ beauty written all over it.
I am starting to see this now as it really is. A lie of the enemy that comes straight from the pit of hell itself.
I don't usually read fiction but this one is well worth the read with God's love~n~ beauty written all over it.
Jun 25, 2007
He speaks to Me...
This is everything the Lord has shown me through out the day. It's one of the ways I spend time with Him. His presence goes before me, behind me and is all around me. I am learning to walk in Him as He unwraps my wounded soul layer by layer, uncovering the scars and placing His healing balm upon the hurts of my past and even the hurts of the present...
First He gave me:
Philippians 4:19 - And my God shall supply all your needs according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus.
Then I prayed it upon me, my household, a friend and her family.
Isaiah 50:4 - The Lord God has given me the tongue of the learned that I should know how to speak a word in season to him who is weary. He awakens me morning by morning He awakens my ear to hear as the learned.
Isaiah 40:3 - The voice of one crying in the wilderness: prepare the way of the Lord make straight in the desert a highway for our God.
Through this word He took me back to my life verse He gave me for 2007 wich is Isaiah 43:18,19. The Lord spoke and said to me "I am still in the wilderness. Staying at the church I have you at is part of that wilderness. Don't be like the Israelites and complain, complain, complain. Instead use this time to draw closer to me. To drink from My cup of living water and eat My fresh manna from heaven. Learn My voice and follow me"
Then He said "Embrace each new day refreshed and ready to receive from me all that I have to give. I do not give as the world gives. So do not let your heart be troubled and do not be afraid."
After this He reminded me that it is all about Him and I am still in preparation for whats ahead. But right now it is my time to become unmasked, unafraid, and undeniable. These are my beauty treatments.
Psalm 33:11 - The counsel of the Lord stands forever, the plans of His heart to all generations. (I prayed for the children, the next generation)
Proverbs 19:21 - There are many plans in a man's heart, Nevertheless the Lords counsel--that will stand.
This gave me hope. That no matter what man thinks(including me) It's His word that will prevail. Amen!
First He gave me:
Philippians 4:19 - And my God shall supply all your needs according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus.
Then I prayed it upon me, my household, a friend and her family.
Isaiah 50:4 - The Lord God has given me the tongue of the learned that I should know how to speak a word in season to him who is weary. He awakens me morning by morning He awakens my ear to hear as the learned.
Isaiah 40:3 - The voice of one crying in the wilderness: prepare the way of the Lord make straight in the desert a highway for our God.
Through this word He took me back to my life verse He gave me for 2007 wich is Isaiah 43:18,19. The Lord spoke and said to me "I am still in the wilderness. Staying at the church I have you at is part of that wilderness. Don't be like the Israelites and complain, complain, complain. Instead use this time to draw closer to me. To drink from My cup of living water and eat My fresh manna from heaven. Learn My voice and follow me"
Then He said "Embrace each new day refreshed and ready to receive from me all that I have to give. I do not give as the world gives. So do not let your heart be troubled and do not be afraid."
After this He reminded me that it is all about Him and I am still in preparation for whats ahead. But right now it is my time to become unmasked, unafraid, and undeniable. These are my beauty treatments.
Psalm 33:11 - The counsel of the Lord stands forever, the plans of His heart to all generations. (I prayed for the children, the next generation)
Proverbs 19:21 - There are many plans in a man's heart, Nevertheless the Lords counsel--that will stand.
This gave me hope. That no matter what man thinks(including me) It's His word that will prevail. Amen!
Jun 20, 2007
My Blessing
May you be Blessed:
With the willingness to look right at the hidden parts of yourself and allow honest exposure and confession to take place.
May you be Blessed:
With a sense of worth and help to build that in others.
With the willingness to look right at the hidden parts of yourself and allow honest exposure and confession to take place.
May you be Blessed:
With a sense of worth and help to build that in others.
Jun 18, 2007
You are a Star!
NOW PLAYING: Athena's Life
STARING: Me
SHOW TIMES: 1975 - Now
Category: DRAMA
Ever feel like your life is like a movie and your the star, except your not playing your part. Instead your in the audience watching your own movie(life) go by.
And this ain't no fairytale/romance your watching. It's more like a drama/thriller.
That's how I feel. I am the star of my own show(life) and yet I have not taken center stage. And like an actor who gets stage fright, I can't help but think what if I mess up? What if I say the wrong thing? Or make a wrong move? So I stay backstage afraid to step out.
I have no agent cuz no one wanted to take me on. Instead I went straight to the source and got the best producer/director in the world. He has approved of my application, portrait and essay I submitted to Him entitled 'self'. He sees the potential in me. Potential to play a fairytale/adventure role. "Just keep reading the script and practicing your lines" He tells me, "You have what it takes, You are a STAR!!" The light is shining on me, the camera's are rolling and it's time for action.
STARING: Me
SHOW TIMES: 1975 - Now
Category: DRAMA
Ever feel like your life is like a movie and your the star, except your not playing your part. Instead your in the audience watching your own movie(life) go by.
And this ain't no fairytale/romance your watching. It's more like a drama/thriller.
That's how I feel. I am the star of my own show(life) and yet I have not taken center stage. And like an actor who gets stage fright, I can't help but think what if I mess up? What if I say the wrong thing? Or make a wrong move? So I stay backstage afraid to step out.
I have no agent cuz no one wanted to take me on. Instead I went straight to the source and got the best producer/director in the world. He has approved of my application, portrait and essay I submitted to Him entitled 'self'. He sees the potential in me. Potential to play a fairytale/adventure role. "Just keep reading the script and practicing your lines" He tells me, "You have what it takes, You are a STAR!!" The light is shining on me, the camera's are rolling and it's time for action.
Jun 14, 2007
Shades of Light
Tonight I caught a glimpse of the sky in all it's splendor.
Clouds of grey washed away by shades of light
Shades of yellow, purple and pink.
When summer storm's paint a picture of Christ in all His glory.
Yes, tonight I caught a glimpse of heaven in all it's splendor
Clouds of grey washed away by shades of light.
Clouds of grey washed away by shades of light
Shades of yellow, purple and pink.
When summer storm's paint a picture of Christ in all His glory.
Yes, tonight I caught a glimpse of heaven in all it's splendor
Clouds of grey washed away by shades of light.
Jun 13, 2007
The Simple Life
I have always thought that decluttering, a clean house, quiet kids, a believing spouse, going to church, not getting mad, having more things, having less things, praying more etc. was living the simple life.
I am finding that simplicity is not in what man can or cannot do, nor in living on more or less. Sure these things help to simplify life but they do not simplify the heart. Only Christ can do that. And I am asking Him to do that for me.
Just when I think I am all growned up He shows me yet another thing about myself that gots to go.
Help me Lord to give you my chaotic, undecisive, dreadfully, doubting mind to you!
I am finding that simplicity is not in what man can or cannot do, nor in living on more or less. Sure these things help to simplify life but they do not simplify the heart. Only Christ can do that. And I am asking Him to do that for me.
Just when I think I am all growned up He shows me yet another thing about myself that gots to go.
Help me Lord to give you my chaotic, undecisive, dreadfully, doubting mind to you!
Bed of Faith
Jaci Velasquez talks about falling in a bed of faith prepared for her in her song "I Will Rest In You".
As I was listening to this song the Lord took me to my bed of faith. Arms open wide I fell right into it. With flower petals falling all around me I rested in the Father's sweet fragrance of serenity. With Him watching over me I closed my eyes and rested in the security of His loving arms. Nestled in green pastures I rested in the pleasures of faith.
As I was listening to this song the Lord took me to my bed of faith. Arms open wide I fell right into it. With flower petals falling all around me I rested in the Father's sweet fragrance of serenity. With Him watching over me I closed my eyes and rested in the security of His loving arms. Nestled in green pastures I rested in the pleasures of faith.
Jun 12, 2007
A Daughter's Faith
I hear Him calling me to a new level of faith.
I see myself as a little girl laughing and playing. The Father is watching me. I have no care in the world because I know that He is taking care of all that. I am free to play, and enjoy the moment.
I have this automatic child like faith in Him because my Father has caused me no harm. He gently,lovingly and patiently takes care of me. I'm not scared for my life. What i will eat or drink cuz as a parent that's His job to think of all that for me.
Is it possible to live a life like this as an adult?
Raised by the Father who never sleeps or slumbers. I am always on His mind. He does not take his eye off of me for a second. He will not sell,or give me away. I can call upon him in an emergency I can yell His name and He will be right there. There is no doubt of His love for me when I am His child.
I see myself as a little girl laughing and playing. The Father is watching me. I have no care in the world because I know that He is taking care of all that. I am free to play, and enjoy the moment.
I have this automatic child like faith in Him because my Father has caused me no harm. He gently,lovingly and patiently takes care of me. I'm not scared for my life. What i will eat or drink cuz as a parent that's His job to think of all that for me.
Is it possible to live a life like this as an adult?
Raised by the Father who never sleeps or slumbers. I am always on His mind. He does not take his eye off of me for a second. He will not sell,or give me away. I can call upon him in an emergency I can yell His name and He will be right there. There is no doubt of His love for me when I am His child.
Jun 11, 2007
He Delights In Me
He delights in me!?
I am both puzzled and excited at the same time upon hearing this statement. First, to think that I am someone to be delighted in is a little weird for me to even think about. And second to think that I can even want to be delighted in is some what appalling to me. But then it also excites me that He loves me and looks upon me in all His beauty with a love that see's no sin. For I am the righteousness of Christ and have been made right by Him.
He-delights-in-me.
Oh God I sense that you want to take me deeper. Somewhere I've never been or even heard about before. Somewhere I never knew existed. Help me to let go so I can receive more of You. Show me your delight and what it means. I ask for new revelation and fresh vision of what it means to be your girl. Stir in me femininity and awaken the passion within that you have placed in me. In your name, Amen
I am both puzzled and excited at the same time upon hearing this statement. First, to think that I am someone to be delighted in is a little weird for me to even think about. And second to think that I can even want to be delighted in is some what appalling to me. But then it also excites me that He loves me and looks upon me in all His beauty with a love that see's no sin. For I am the righteousness of Christ and have been made right by Him.
He-delights-in-me.
Oh God I sense that you want to take me deeper. Somewhere I've never been or even heard about before. Somewhere I never knew existed. Help me to let go so I can receive more of You. Show me your delight and what it means. I ask for new revelation and fresh vision of what it means to be your girl. Stir in me femininity and awaken the passion within that you have placed in me. In your name, Amen
Dear Mr. Youth Man
Excuse me Mr. Youth Man, but I have a few questions for you. I hope I don't come off to concerned and yet I can't help but ask myself why can't I? Is it not my God given right as a parent to be concerned for the one that I will be held accountable to God for raising him in the instruction and righteousness of the One who gave me him. Okay, maybe that was a bit much. How bout it came with the job.
Please know that when I ask you if you have a blog, what I'm really saying is I'd like to get to know the one that my child will look up to better.
And when I ask you what the name of the youth group is and if they have there own website, what I am really asking is if they have there own identity as a group? You know a place to belong and become who God created them to be.
When I ask you how should I refer to you as, the youth pastor or youth leader, what I am really asking is what are your intentions as someone who is in a position to impact the next generation for greater or worse? Depending on your answer, it will tell me how involved you are in the lives of the youth and therefor let me know how serious you are about your God given position.
The next question follows that. When I ask you what the vision is for the group, please know that what I'm really asking is what are your goals for the youth? I know my goal for my child(Most mom's pretty much have the same one) but I gotta wonder are yours the same?
And when I ask you who holds you accountable, what I am really saying is who is training you as you train the youth?
And when I ask you how long you've been a christian what I am really asking is what is your relationship with God like?
Well, I think that's all the questions I have for now. I don't mean to put you on the spot and yet I do. As one who will have a huge impact on my child it's imperative in this case that you meet certain standards cuz as I said before you impact them for better or for worse. Thanks for listening.
Athena(mom of a soon to be sixth grader)
Please know that when I ask you if you have a blog, what I'm really saying is I'd like to get to know the one that my child will look up to better.
And when I ask you what the name of the youth group is and if they have there own website, what I am really asking is if they have there own identity as a group? You know a place to belong and become who God created them to be.
When I ask you how should I refer to you as, the youth pastor or youth leader, what I am really asking is what are your intentions as someone who is in a position to impact the next generation for greater or worse? Depending on your answer, it will tell me how involved you are in the lives of the youth and therefor let me know how serious you are about your God given position.
The next question follows that. When I ask you what the vision is for the group, please know that what I'm really asking is what are your goals for the youth? I know my goal for my child(Most mom's pretty much have the same one) but I gotta wonder are yours the same?
And when I ask you who holds you accountable, what I am really saying is who is training you as you train the youth?
And when I ask you how long you've been a christian what I am really asking is what is your relationship with God like?
Well, I think that's all the questions I have for now. I don't mean to put you on the spot and yet I do. As one who will have a huge impact on my child it's imperative in this case that you meet certain standards cuz as I said before you impact them for better or for worse. Thanks for listening.
Athena(mom of a soon to be sixth grader)
Jun 6, 2007
It's A Celebration!!!
Your children are blessings sent from the Father above. I need you to bring them to me...I have great plans for there lives. You are not inadequate. You are a mother a role that I have placed in you. Now mother them as I mother you. Lean on me as they lean on you. Teach them who there Father is. I want to love on them through you. Don't worry about there earthly father my love is enough...I have enough love to go around and around some more.
You see I am celebrating you. You are a star! Everyday, every moment I look upon you with love and delight that says how happy I am that you are mine. Your birth certificate is signed by Me and everyday is a spiritual birthday party up here with songs of joy, love and laughter. I declare laughter over you My child. At this never ending heavenly party the table is filled to overflowing with gifts galore. And they have your name on it. To:Athena With Love:Your Father. Go ahead open one....that's right its the gift of life. L-I-F-E Live It Fully Everyday...For you are fearfully and wonderfully made and my mercies are new every morning.
Open another one....don't be scared. You have nothing to fear...there is no fear in My love for you....that's right I've given you a gift of love. And a gift of laughter...and a gift of touch, taste, sight, smell, hearing...And theirs more lots more child, just look around you and be ready to receive, receive what I have for you. You will not lack...everyday I'm having a party for you, everyday your a star...everyday is a celebration of who you are!!!!
You see I am celebrating you. You are a star! Everyday, every moment I look upon you with love and delight that says how happy I am that you are mine. Your birth certificate is signed by Me and everyday is a spiritual birthday party up here with songs of joy, love and laughter. I declare laughter over you My child. At this never ending heavenly party the table is filled to overflowing with gifts galore. And they have your name on it. To:Athena With Love:Your Father. Go ahead open one....that's right its the gift of life. L-I-F-E Live It Fully Everyday...For you are fearfully and wonderfully made and my mercies are new every morning.
Open another one....don't be scared. You have nothing to fear...there is no fear in My love for you....that's right I've given you a gift of love. And a gift of laughter...and a gift of touch, taste, sight, smell, hearing...And theirs more lots more child, just look around you and be ready to receive, receive what I have for you. You will not lack...everyday I'm having a party for you, everyday your a star...everyday is a celebration of who you are!!!!
Jun 4, 2007
A Daughter of the King
Inherit:To come into possession of;possess.
This is what the Lord has been speaking of to me this morning. I had no words to tell Him just feelings. As I sat silently staring out the window with my heart racing and my mind spinning with all the cares of this world I thought to myself,What if I don't need to know God as my Father as much as I need to know myself as His daughter? Daughter of the most high God...what does that look like anyway?
A daughter of the King
Possesses an inner strength that enables them to walk in victory
A daughter of the King
possesses the richness of this life through abundant living
A daughter of the King
possesses a beauty that transcends all time
A daughter of the King
possesses a purity that no man can touch
A daughter of the King
possesses an identity that says I belong to God
This is what the Lord has been speaking of to me this morning. I had no words to tell Him just feelings. As I sat silently staring out the window with my heart racing and my mind spinning with all the cares of this world I thought to myself,What if I don't need to know God as my Father as much as I need to know myself as His daughter? Daughter of the most high God...what does that look like anyway?
A daughter of the King
Possesses an inner strength that enables them to walk in victory
A daughter of the King
possesses the richness of this life through abundant living
A daughter of the King
possesses a beauty that transcends all time
A daughter of the King
possesses a purity that no man can touch
A daughter of the King
possesses an identity that says I belong to God
Jun 2, 2007
Dear Daddy
I am having trouble processing it all. I just need to know that every things going to be okay. Trust you?? How? How can I trust when I never could before? How can I believe in something I can't even see. You have taken care of me all my life even when I wouldn't acknowledge you. Where are you now? I am weary. If it's not one thing it's another. I need you. I need you to deliver me from my oppression and set my paths straight. Help me to trust in you. Help me to lean on only you. Strengthen me to do what I know you ask of me and may kindness be on my heart.
Love Your daughter
Love Your daughter
Jun 1, 2007
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