Come

Today I am really seeing just how insecure I still am. How much more I need to receive Gods unconditional love. Will it ever end? Will I ever come to a place where I know that I know how much I am loved and accepted by my Father in heaven...
Some days seem easier then others. Some days it seems I've completely fallen and wandered out of my place of security in Him and I find myself following a path of lies. The path of insecurity.
Today though I hear Him calling, "Daughter get up, come over here. Come sit on my lap. I want to tell you a story. A story about a beautiful girl and how loved she is. A story about YOU".

A Call to Anguish

Next up...Esther!

Today ended B.M. study of the Patriarchs. I really enjoyed this study and learned some things I did not know about some pretty common bible stories I've always heard. I thought it interesting to read about the dysfunction in the families and all the deceiving that went on. How so many families today can relate to so many families back then. The story that intrigued me the most though was Joseph's. Theirs so much more to the story then just his dream and coat. I so recommend this study!
Next up...Esther!! Yaaaaa, I can't wait. I've already heard much about it from others who are doing this study. I'm excited to start.


His Girl,

For I am Not Ashamed...

Well, I thought I would blog on wut the Lord showed me while studying Romans 1.
I should probably say that I read the chapter like 6 times in different versions of the Bible and heard a couple messages on it as well.
The first thing God spoke to my heart was on Romans 1:16,

So, as much as is in me, I am ready to preach the gospel to you who are in Rome also.
For I am not ashamed of the gospel of Christ, for it is the power of God to salvation for everyone who believes, for the Jew first and also for the Greek.

For I am not ashamed of the gospel of Christ...

I was in church when I heard/read this and I thought to myself, no worries there cuz I am so not ashamed of the gospel, I'm not ashamed of you Lord. It's me and you, not in anyway am I embarrassed right? I was so wrong! A couple days later He showed me that I am ashamed of the gospel when I fear doing the things I believe He shows me or saying things to others that He shows me to speak or pray.

I don't want to be ashamed of the gospel of Christ and I am learning to step out more and not be so afraid to speak the things of God no matter wut that may look like. Paul wasn't. He eagerly preached the gospel so why shouldn't I!
Christ died
For me!
Not so I can abide in fear
But in His love!
And in His love
I am not ashamed!


His Girl,

Happy Birthday Nicolas!

We celebrated Nic's 9th birthday over the weekend.





His Girl,

Live Deeply

Church was awesome this past Sunday! We went to HBC cuz that's where the Lord was leading us to go. And am I glad I followed Him cuz the message was sooo for me and Angel. The pastor shared the theme for the church that the Lord gives them every year. Last years theme was Passion. Passion for God - Passion for people.
This years theme is Live Deeply. He talked on Ephesians 3:16-19,

I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge--that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.

To Live Deeply in Him. To go deeper in His love one step at a time. To embark on a journey of reading the Bible everyday, writing down wut He shows us and getting to know Him thru reading His Word. The whole church.
This was so encouraging for me cuz the past several months the Lord has been pressing on my heart to study the Bible chapter by chapter. Actually wait, it's been since the fall in 2008 that He has been leading me up to this point. Every time I start, I stop cuz I have been so afraid that I'm doing it wrong. God has shown me much, like where my insecurity comes from when it comes to studying the Bible. I'm studying Romans right now, just started chapter 2 today. I hope to blog more on this but we'll see
The Lord had also showed me that week about opening up more and letting Him love me in places of my heart that are still closed, tightly I might add.
So how does Angel tie in to all this? Sunday's message was totally for him too! That week God had put it on my heart to have him start reading Romans to. I told him to read all of Romans 1 and then write down what he noticed it said. He said its talking something about Paul, the romans and sin. I told him this is wut he will do everyday. And then we go to church on Sunday and he knew God was talking to him about reading the bible everyday. Plus, last night he said they talked about homosexuality in youth group(HBC). How awesome is that!

Luke's Birthday Blessing

Today is Luke's Birthday! He's 6 yrs. old now.

Let me tell you what God said next.
He said, "You're my son,
And today is your birthday.
What do you want? Name it:
Nations as a present? continents as a prize?
Psalm 2:7-8 The MESSAGE

“The Lord said to me, ‘You are my son.
Today I have become your Father.
Only ask, and I will give you the nations as your inheritance,
the whole earth as your possession.
Psalm 2:7-8