Back in August 07 I had a vision. I believe it goes along with the most recent one I had. I blogged it but never posted it cuz I didn't want anyone who may be reading this to think I was freaky. Especially ppl from my church. I am so glad I saved it in my posts cuz I didn't remember certain parts of it. This is why it's more important for me now to write things down. Anywayz, here it is....
Heavens Court
I saw myself in a court room. My hands and feet were in chains and I was standing before the Judge in tears. He said, "I have sustained you". "There is no accuser of the brethren"(Rev.12:10)
I saw the chains fall off and I knew He had freed me of all accusations. There was no juror. No documentation of everything I had done. Angels filled the seats. And when my chains fell off the angels stood and worshiped the Lord. I worshiped the Lord. And the whole room was filled with the glory of the Lord.
Sep 25, 2008
Free
In continuing my post from yesterday...
The next day I realized why my feelings of the past were becoming so overwhelming.
It was(and still is) the inner working of the H.S. on my heart. I knew my time had come to be set free from this particular area of my life. It's a process but one I choose to embrace for I know it is part of my destiny in Him. He gave me a song that day. It's called free by Ginny Owens.
Turnin' molehills into mountains,
Makin' big deals out of small ones,
Bearing gifts as if they're burdens,
This is how it's been.
Fear of coming out of my shell,
Too many things I can't do too well,
afraid I'll try real hard, and I'll fail--
This is how it's been.
Till the day You pounded on my heart's door,
And You shouted joyfully,
"You're not a slave anymore!"
Chorus:
"You're free to dance-
Forget about your two left feet
And you're free to sing-even joyful noise is music to Me
You're free to love,
'Cause I've given you My love,
and it's made you free
I have set you free!
My mind finds hard to believe
That You became humanity and changed the course of history,
Because You loved me so.
And my heart cannot understand
Why You'd accept me as I am,
But You say You've always had a plan,
And that's all I need to know.
So when I am consumed by what the world will say,
it's Then You're singing to me, as You remove my chains-
Free from worry, free from envy and denial
Free to live, free to give, free to smile
The next day I realized why my feelings of the past were becoming so overwhelming.
It was(and still is) the inner working of the H.S. on my heart. I knew my time had come to be set free from this particular area of my life. It's a process but one I choose to embrace for I know it is part of my destiny in Him. He gave me a song that day. It's called free by Ginny Owens.
Turnin' molehills into mountains,
Makin' big deals out of small ones,
Bearing gifts as if they're burdens,
This is how it's been.
Fear of coming out of my shell,
Too many things I can't do too well,
afraid I'll try real hard, and I'll fail--
This is how it's been.
Till the day You pounded on my heart's door,
And You shouted joyfully,
"You're not a slave anymore!"
Chorus:
"You're free to dance-
Forget about your two left feet
And you're free to sing-even joyful noise is music to Me
You're free to love,
'Cause I've given you My love,
and it's made you free
I have set you free!
My mind finds hard to believe
That You became humanity and changed the course of history,
Because You loved me so.
And my heart cannot understand
Why You'd accept me as I am,
But You say You've always had a plan,
And that's all I need to know.
So when I am consumed by what the world will say,
it's Then You're singing to me, as You remove my chains-
Free from worry, free from envy and denial
Free to live, free to give, free to smile
Sep 24, 2008
Seeking Peace, Wholeness & Freedom
Wow, I have had one incredibale week with One incredible God! There's just been so much going on with me spiritually that I am overwhelmed, in a good way though. It all started last Wednesday...
Stuff from my past was really bothering me. I just couldn't seem to shake it. It was like it was haunting me.
*sidenote* Some like to say that it's the enemy, he's the one that brings up your past not Jesus, rebuke it and cast those thoughts aside, you are free in Christ a new creation. While I do believe this there was just one problem. I ALREADY KNOW THIS!*end sidenote*
So I started questioning, what's wrong with me? Why is this bothering me so much? Is this gonna follow me for the rest of my life? It can't be possible, can it? If everyone teaches that you can have wholeness and it's what The Big Book says then my only question is how? How can I be free of this?
That night at H.L.G. when it was my turn to answer the question posed I confessed my fear of going closer to God and of the H.S and what others will think. They encouraged me to go for it. I also told a good friend of mine the feelings I had been having.
Speaking of...Joe just called and said he's on his way. That means I get to go tonight. I will be taking 2 of my kids plus a couple extra. I'm really excited about that. I think the home, church family, worship enviroment will be good for them to see.
Peace Out ~
Stuff from my past was really bothering me. I just couldn't seem to shake it. It was like it was haunting me.
*sidenote* Some like to say that it's the enemy, he's the one that brings up your past not Jesus, rebuke it and cast those thoughts aside, you are free in Christ a new creation. While I do believe this there was just one problem. I ALREADY KNOW THIS!*end sidenote*
So I started questioning, what's wrong with me? Why is this bothering me so much? Is this gonna follow me for the rest of my life? It can't be possible, can it? If everyone teaches that you can have wholeness and it's what The Big Book says then my only question is how? How can I be free of this?
That night at H.L.G. when it was my turn to answer the question posed I confessed my fear of going closer to God and of the H.S and what others will think. They encouraged me to go for it. I also told a good friend of mine the feelings I had been having.
Speaking of...Joe just called and said he's on his way. That means I get to go tonight. I will be taking 2 of my kids plus a couple extra. I'm really excited about that. I think the home, church family, worship enviroment will be good for them to see.
Peace Out ~
Sep 23, 2008
Journaling
Well, it's been awhile. I miss blogging cuz it's the easiest way for me to keep journaling. I just haven't had time and I have trouble getting my thoughts together.
But I was looking thru my royal identity binder a couple days ago and I realized how much it means when you write things down. I want to record all that the Lord is doing in my life for myself just as much as for my kids. So I am gonna try and keep up.
But I was looking thru my royal identity binder a couple days ago and I realized how much it means when you write things down. I want to record all that the Lord is doing in my life for myself just as much as for my kids. So I am gonna try and keep up.
Jul 26, 2008
I Am Chosen!
"For you see your calling, brethren, that not many wise according to the flesh, not many mighty, not many noble, are called. But God has chosen the foolish things of the world to put to shame the wise, and God has chosen the weak things of the world to put to shame the things which are mighty; and the base things of the world and the things which are despised God has chosen, and the things which are not, to bring to nothing the things that are, that no flesh should glory in His presence. But of Him you are in Christ Jesus, who became for us wisdom from God—and righteousness and sanctification and redemption— that, as it is written, “He who glories, let him glory in the LORD.” ~ 1 Corinthians 1:26-31
The Father has been teaching me about His glory and what that looks like in my life. I learned that I am chosen by God Himself. It is His will for me to know His glory and for the Lord to be glorified in my life. And not only mine but in every Christ followers life. He wants to display His glory in me and through me. I have always known this right, but not in this way. My inadequacies and insecurities tell me His glory is not for me. I am not worthy enough. Other people may be but not me. I am only human right. But what I have been missing is I am a human made in His image by His divine design.
I am so honored to sit at His feet. I have been chosen to display His splendor, the Glory of the Lord.
I am a chosen generation of royalty and I am so honored. This is His love n beauty in me, His beauty for ashes is His glory from being broken to beautiful. That Beauty is His Glory in me, His daughter, that He may be glorified!!!
The Father has been teaching me about His glory and what that looks like in my life. I learned that I am chosen by God Himself. It is His will for me to know His glory and for the Lord to be glorified in my life. And not only mine but in every Christ followers life. He wants to display His glory in me and through me. I have always known this right, but not in this way. My inadequacies and insecurities tell me His glory is not for me. I am not worthy enough. Other people may be but not me. I am only human right. But what I have been missing is I am a human made in His image by His divine design.
I am so honored to sit at His feet. I have been chosen to display His splendor, the Glory of the Lord.
I am a chosen generation of royalty and I am so honored. This is His love n beauty in me, His beauty for ashes is His glory from being broken to beautiful. That Beauty is His Glory in me, His daughter, that He may be glorified!!!
Jul 18, 2008
Scared
Two words. I'm scared. That's where I have been these past few months. Everything was going great. I was drawing close to God and He was drawing near to me but then I stopped cuz I didn't want to go any farther. I got scared. Scared of His presence and of His power. Scared of what others will think and there opinions of God in my life. He wants to take me to places I've never been and love on me like only He can.
And I don't want to be scared of Him anymore.
And I don't want to be scared of Him anymore.
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