Identity Theft

My sister came to my mind this morning. She is still locked up with her next court date in October. The attorney says she should get out right before Christmas. Her daughter started Kindergarten this week. So much time is passing by...
I cry for her. The pain and the hopelessness she feels. The guilt and the shame of never being good enough. I guess I'm seeing that you really do act out what you feel and what you believe about yourself. Her not good enough feelings have taken her to a place that society totally says is not good enough. Thousands upon thousands of people are living life like this. Imprisoned by there own insecurities and being held captive to words of death and wrong actions that the enemy has used to destroy them. He seeks to steal, kill and destroy our identity and hold us in bondage to what we were, where we've been, or what we've become and not what we could be.
I like what Elastigirl said in the movie The Incredible's,"Your identity is your most valuable possession, protect it and if anything goes wrong use your powers"
I think there's some truth to this. The truth is my identity in Christ is my most valuable possession. It takes me to who I once was to who I can become. I also have to protect it. There is a spiritual battle going on and I am constantly having to fight by the renewing of my mind through His word. I also have powers. I have the power of the Holy Spirit living inside of me. Clothed in the armor of God I release seeds of love, joy and peace.
I am not exactly there yet. But I am headed that way. Because I am taking back what the enemy has stolen. What about you?

He Believe's in Me

Wow! God is so good to me. He continually woos me with His awesomeness. I started working in Believing God today. This means I won't be finished with it by tomorrow night when the group meets again. But amazingly I read a quote in day 1 and day 2 today that goes along with what I wrote yesterday. Beth writes: "Even when I've missed the mark of sound application, I've sensed Him saying Your on the right track, child. Stay after it! Keep practicing belief, and you'll learn more and more about My desires as you go"
And in day 1 she says,"I ache for the body of Christ in our generation to learn how to tarry before God and expectantly wait for Him to speak. I'm desperate to learn it for myself. If we did, what revelation we would receive! We cannot have a drive-thru relationship with God and expect to behold His glory. Joshua didn't get a to-go order of God. He dined with Him for days."

Prayer:Your words are so sweet to me Father. And I rest in your faithfulness. Your love and Your beauty surrounds me even when I don't feel so lovely. Shower me in Your mercy and your grace. You are lovely. In your precious name.

Waiting In Him

I just finished listening to Sundays message. I am so glad I did too. There's so much the Lord has been speaking to me these last couple days.
Sundays message went right along with it. I have had some fear and doubt come up in me this past week but today is a new day and without a doubt I know I am on the right track. Waiting is part of the journey and I definitely want to wait upon the Lord until He says go. He recently showed me that I have a problem with wanting to get ahead of God. I am so eager to see what's behind door number 2 and 3 but He is wanting me to wait right in His loving arms and savor the moments with Him.
If I have learned anything these past several months it's that I don't have to do anything except believe and that's a battle in the mind. As I seek Him and His righteousness everything else just falls into place cuz He orchestrates it all. As I give Him all of me I get more of Him. And it's Him that enables me to fulfill my purpose on this earth. It's Him that enables me to love. It's Him that enables me to walk in my destiny. Dipped in His blood and soaking in His living waters, it's Him that I want to be manifested in my life and that, I believe, takes waiting upon the Lord.

Prayer: God help me to wait upon you for everything. I want you to establish my steps. Thank you for giving me the strength to wait and obey you. Your timing is just right. I love you!

Blessed Sunday

The Lord gave me three gifts yesterday.

First, I met a lady at church. I knew her from a local online group but got to meet her in person. God totally hooked us up.
Second, a friend found Rita Springer in the churches bookstore. I was so excited and got to purchase a cd. Her music is awesome!
Third, I found Just walk across the room at Half Price. What are the odds of that but that He put it there for me.

Thank You Daddy God!

Poem

Chapter One

I walk down the street
There's a deep hole in the sidewalk
I fall in
I am lost and I am helpless
It's not my fault
It takes a long time to get out

Chapter Two

I walk down the same street
There's a deep hole in the sidewalk
I pretend I don't see it
I fall in
I can't believe I am in the same place but
It's not my fault
It takes a long time to get out

Chapter Three

I walk down the same street
There's a deep hole in the sidewalk
I see it there
I fall in
It's a habit, my eyes are open
I know where I am
It's my fault
I get out immediately

Chapter Four

I walk down the same street
There's a deep hole in the sidewalk
I walk around it

Chapter Five

I walk down another street.

Author Portia Nelson

Consuming Fire

I am not doing good right now. I am in the fight of my life. It's not just the money it's every part of my life. My heart is ablaze in the refiners fire and I want so badly to stop, drop, and roll. The flames are becoming to high and yet I know these ones will take me higher in Him and I shall come out as gold and on fire for Jesus.
I have been listening to Facedown all morning now and my word for the day is Psalm 3:3-4 "But You, O Lord, are a shield for me, my glory, and the lifter of my head. With my voice I cry to the Lord, and He hears and answers me out of His holy hill. Selah [pause and calmly think of that]!"
This is so painful but I know He loves me and I have to believe in the King of Glory. He has prepared me for such a time as this and I am His warrior princess. I will endure to the very end counting it all joy while developing perseverance. Because perseverance must finish it's work so that I may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. Even in trials and tribulations God is so good to me!
He gets sweeter and sweeter as the days go by...and I keep falling in love with Him...

My Carrier

Someone actually gave me the vision of me carrying the bags. She said that she saw me holding a lot of bags, like groceries and there's a door in front of me that I am trying to open while holding on to the bags. The door won't open, the bags are getting heavy and I am getting tired. Jesus is standing in between me and the door.
Saying give me the bags. The door won't open cuz I got to give Him the load and go through Him first.
So I was in an attitude of worship a while ago and I saw myself holding the bags. I saw that one bag was broke and the stuff spilled all over the floor.(finances) I was holding my head down cuz I was ashamed to give them to Him.
I prayed that He would just take the bags from me, that He can have them. And He said "Not only will I carry your bags but I will carry you too" I saw Him holding me saying "Come away with Me My love".