Psalm 46:10

Be still and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth!

BE STILL: rest,calm,delight,peace,quiet,assurance,wait,listen,expect,recieve love.

AND KNOW THAT: believe,rest assured,confidence,wisdom,insight,knowledge,revelation.

I AM GOD: Almighty,Able,Restorer,Daddy,Banker,Deliverer.

Endless Love

Last night as I was worshiping the Lord said to me "My love is endless like the sky goes on and on forever so does my love. There is no end and no endings only beginnings with eternal life"

Before & After

This is me
Before:
worried,anxious,confused,angry,discontent,chaotic,unloving,frustrated,codependent, depressed,low self esteem,shameful,guilty,careless,unbelief,empty,selfish,prideful,unhappy,bitter...

After:
Joyfull,excited,calm,content,loving,caring,aware,talkative,worthy,forgiven,creative,patient,prayerful,worshipful,thankful,warrior,bride of Christ,righteousness of Christ,full,satisfied,open...

Of course I am still a work in progress but Praise God! He really is making all things new.

Mother & Daughter Dinner

Okay, I think I figured this picture thing out. Anyways, My daughter and I attended a mother & daughter dinner last night. It was our first time. It was so beautiful. I think it was an Esther theme. The colors were purple. white, and gold. The mother's got a crown and the daughter's a scepter. They took a professional picture and gave it to us towards the end of the night. There was a beautiful banner that said chosen one and another that said something about your bridegroom has come. They actually served us our food including the water. We had an elegant meal of glazed ham,asparagus, carrots, potatoes, and rolls while a worship band played. The entertainment consisted of mother & daughter tributes. A testimony with a dance and a song that made you wanna cry. A daughter wrote and sang a song for her mother, A husband singing a song to his wife and when he was done she walked on stage and hugged him, two adult daughter's thanking there mom for the prayers and christian heritage she raised them in, a tribute for a maternity house mom for the many daughter's she has raised.

It was full of love and beauty...

Princess Dreams

I have spent a lot of time with my daughter lately doing girly things.
Girly things like:

• shopping
• eating
• doing hair
• painting nails
• accessorizing
• using the shimmer lotion
• attending a mother-daughter dinner

And unbeknownst to me it was a lot of fun!! Yep, I think being a girl was fun and I would like to try and continue this. After all it is my God given right!

So before there was spilled milk, mud, bugs, sticky hands, ice scream faces, potty accidents, bleach and scrubbing bubbles...there was baggy clothes, dark makeup, Nike's and the color red. And before there was skirts, matching outfits, flamingos, palm trees, swatch, and slumber parties...there was barbies, the color pink, Cinderella dresses and princess dreams....

Is this not what every girl dreams of ? Until the thorns of life come and slowly her dreams begin to fade away slipping through the hands of time she now hides behind a mask of lies that was never meant to be there in the first place. Well, this girl is tired of hiding and I'm tired of running. There really is a castle waiting for me. It is being prepared as I write. And I really am a princess. Even better, a daughter of the King of Kings.

And so I pray Lord that you would continue to bring my femininity into shock and awaken the dreams that you have placed in me to fulfill my destiny as Your daughter, as a wife and as a mother. I want to honor you Lord and be who you created me to be. Continue to open my eyes to your truth that the enemy has hidden for so long. I praise you for I am fearfully and wonderfully made and in that may my soul know well. In Jesus name, Amen

It is Finished!

It is finished! Those are the words the Lord has given me to declare over my life. I started my recovery journey in February of 2003 when one day I woke up to His amazing grace. I heard a quote today that explains it all. It was "a revelation to an invitation for an impartation that creates transformation that leads to a manifestation
of revelation."
Something only the Lord could do. Not by might nor by power but by His spirit. It has been a long four years of renewing of my mind through transformation and He will continue to transform me until I get to heaven. But for 31 years I was bound to a life of misery and that is what He is saying is finished! My past does not make my future. It's my future that makes my past and therefore what I do in the now is what matters. And now is the time to lay hold of the hope that I have in Christ Jesus. Hope for myself, husband and children. For my city, country and all nations.
Yes it is finished but as I end this post the Lord is showing me more...that it's also the beginning.

May Verse

Yea,(Yeaaahhh!) though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil;
For You are with me;
Your rod(on my left) and Your staff(on my right), they comfort me.

You prepare a table before me in
the presence of my enemies;
You anoint my head with oil;
My cup runs over.(And over, and over, and over...)
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me
All the days of my life;
And I will dwell in the house of the Lord
Forever. ~ Psalm 23:4-6